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Well... So now you'll read about my life. My life isn't as depressing as I make it seem. Some days are awesome! I hang out with 'friends', go to movies, actually have GOOD conversations with girls. But it seems like all of that has gone downhill over time...
I guess I'll start by telling you, briefly, about my life over the past few months. My best friend's ex-gf told me she liked me. In fact, LOVED me. And I loved her back. But of course, my 'friend' believes in the whole guy code thing. So, needless to say, she moved on, and I still like her. AND I like her friend, now. Both of them liked me at one point, but not anymore. That was Christmas break. Which was probably the happiest time of my life. I've never felt so loved and no one has ever payed that much attention to me.
My dad lost his job of 14 years. He's constantly depressed, but acts like he's happy. It's always awkward around my parents anymore. It used to be fun, but now all I see in them is how fat and uncool they are. That's mean, I know. I wish I could go back in time, 5 years ago, and change things. I wouldn't be so afraid to do the things I do now.
Somedays, I spend just hanging out in my room. The WHOLE day, whether or not I'm talking to people online or playing video games. I just hate the tension between my family.
My friends hate me. For no fucking reason either, it's like, what the hell have I done to you? If you hate me soo much, then why do you act like my best friend?

Well, there's so much more that I can talk about, but I'll save that for later.