Song: Are We The Waiting - Green Day
I have to admit, it's very hard for me to write these blogs. I'm too lazy, for one, and I don't really have the time. I think I need a therapist or something, someone who will actually listen to me for once.
I think I might have anxiety, I looked up the symptoms, and I seem to fit every one of them. Well, to make it easy for me, I'm just going to post what happened through my whole day, by class hours.
1st hour: one of my favorite hours because it's an internet class. People called me a creeper like usual because I wear the same hoodie everyday.
2nd: my stupid, asian ass teacher always makes us turn everything in the minute we walk in, so I couldn't finish my fucking vocab in time. What a bitch. the usual piece of shit trailer trash kid didn't smack the shit out of me today, which was a relief for once.
3rd: biology, with mr. gingerich. THEE worst teacher anyone could ever have. He gave my 'friend' a panic attack at the beginning of the year. He yelled at him right in his face.
4th: math. My favorite teacher, and I have this really cool black kid in that class that is funny as hell. But, I have a D in that class that I can't seem to get back up.
5th: history. my teacher was out for 2 weeks because he had appendicitis. the black kid is in that class too, so it's pretty fun. I have a feeling it's going to get bad again though, because he's starting to feel better (my teacher.)
6th: health. I'm starting to hate that class. I have like 29 tardies from the whole year in that class. that old bastard follows by ALL the rules.
After school, came home. No one's online. I haven't talked to the 2 girls that I like in the last 2 days. My 'friends' ex-gf seems to be ignoring me or something. She all of a sudden became a bitch and told my 'friend' that I used to like her. (ya' see, she thinks I don't like her anymore.)
So yeah, just a normal day. I'll try to update each day if I can.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
1st
Well... So now you'll read about my life. My life isn't as depressing as I make it seem. Some days are awesome! I hang out with 'friends', go to movies, actually have GOOD conversations with girls. But it seems like all of that has gone downhill over time...
I guess I'll start by telling you, briefly, about my life over the past few months. My best friend's ex-gf told me she liked me. In fact, LOVED me. And I loved her back. But of course, my 'friend' believes in the whole guy code thing. So, needless to say, she moved on, and I still like her. AND I like her friend, now. Both of them liked me at one point, but not anymore. That was Christmas break. Which was probably the happiest time of my life. I've never felt so loved and no one has ever payed that much attention to me.
My dad lost his job of 14 years. He's constantly depressed, but acts like he's happy. It's always awkward around my parents anymore. It used to be fun, but now all I see in them is how fat and uncool they are. That's mean, I know. I wish I could go back in time, 5 years ago, and change things. I wouldn't be so afraid to do the things I do now.
Somedays, I spend just hanging out in my room. The WHOLE day, whether or not I'm talking to people online or playing video games. I just hate the tension between my family.
My friends hate me. For no fucking reason either, it's like, what the hell have I done to you? If you hate me soo much, then why do you act like my best friend?
Well, there's so much more that I can talk about, but I'll save that for later.
I guess I'll start by telling you, briefly, about my life over the past few months. My best friend's ex-gf told me she liked me. In fact, LOVED me. And I loved her back. But of course, my 'friend' believes in the whole guy code thing. So, needless to say, she moved on, and I still like her. AND I like her friend, now. Both of them liked me at one point, but not anymore. That was Christmas break. Which was probably the happiest time of my life. I've never felt so loved and no one has ever payed that much attention to me.
My dad lost his job of 14 years. He's constantly depressed, but acts like he's happy. It's always awkward around my parents anymore. It used to be fun, but now all I see in them is how fat and uncool they are. That's mean, I know. I wish I could go back in time, 5 years ago, and change things. I wouldn't be so afraid to do the things I do now.
Somedays, I spend just hanging out in my room. The WHOLE day, whether or not I'm talking to people online or playing video games. I just hate the tension between my family.
My friends hate me. For no fucking reason either, it's like, what the hell have I done to you? If you hate me soo much, then why do you act like my best friend?
Well, there's so much more that I can talk about, but I'll save that for later.
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